Sensitive Doer

I haven’t posted anything here in my blog so I decided to put this intead. Got this from Lizzie, a friend from PinoyGraphers@SG. I would say, the result is 99% true. Take the same test here.

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Sensitive Doers are gentle, modest and reserved persons. They cope well with everyday life and like their privacy. With their quiet, optimistic nature, they are also good, sought-after listeners and other people feel well in their company. All in all, this type is the most likeable and friendliest of all personality types. Tolerance and heir regard for others distinguish their personality. They are very caring, generous and always willing to help. They are open to and interested in everything that is new or unknown to them. However, if their inner value system or their sense of justice is hurt, Sensitive Doers can suddenly and surprisingly become forceful and assertive.

Sensitive Doers enjoy the comforts life offers to the full. They are very happy in everyday life. Sensitive Doers are often gifted artists or very good craftsmen. Creativity, imagination and an especially keen perception are just a few of their strong points. Sensitive Doers are very presence-oriented; long-term planning and preparations do not appeal to them. They take life as it comes and react flexibly to daily demands. They do not like too much routine and predictability. Their talents come more to the fore when work processes are variable and there are not so many rules. Sensitive Doers like to work alone; if they are part of a team, they do not get involved in competitive or power games and prefer living and working together harmoniously and openly.

Sensitive Doers are completely satisfied with a small, close circle of friends as their need for social contacts is not very marked. Here, too, they avoid conflicts – quarrels and disputes put considerable strain on them. Sensitive Doers are often very fond of animals and are very good with small children. As partner, this type is loyal and reliable and is willing to invest a lot in a relationship. Mutual respect and tolerance are very important to Sensitive Doers. Their love of pleasure makes them a pleasant companion with whom one can experience intensive moments. They like to look after their partner with attentiveness and small gifts and are very sensitive to the partner’s needs – often more than to their own. However, should they meet the wrong person, they run the risk of being taken advantage of. They are then deeply disappointed.

Pahimakas Sa Nakaraan

Pagduyan sa awiting ating naririnig
Pagsabay sa agos, kung san dalhin
Sa oras ng paglisan, kaway ng nakaraan
Alaalang nakaguhit sa bawat pilat ng ulan

Lumingon sa pinanggalingan, alaala’y balikan
Alalahanin at pulutin, magagandang karanasan
Maglakad sa parang ng bawat kabutihan
Sumayaw sa saliw na dala ng kamusmusan

Ibaling ang pansin sa sulok na madilim
Sa mga sandali na naging bulag at sakim
Bilangin ang luha na dumaloy sa mata
at mga pagbugso ng damdamin sa lamig ng baga

At Ilipad ang sarili buhat sa nakaraan
Kalong ang punla ng mga natutunan
Ibaon sa puso, sa lupa ng kinabukasan
Ng bumunga na huhubog sa minimithing kinabukasan

Humarap sa bukas at isulong ang hakbang
Ituloy ang yugto na may ngiti at tapang
At sa mga araw na mapupuwing at masasaktan
Alalahanin ang pahimakas sa nakaraan

You’re still my best buddy…

“Mom, it’s been 2 decades when I first saw the mom that I know in you since then. The family was in great turmoil but you managed to stand alone. That was the time I first saw you cried, struggled and confused what to do with us. You were always filled with fear by then, which the smile you were wearing was just to cover those things from us. But then you continued the life that God had entrusted to you. You failed us to give a descent house, sumptuous food, elegant clothing. You let us live in a shanty, eat anything just to complete the 3 meals, ask your friends to give their children’s unused uniforms for school. Because I know, financially, you really can’t, even if you desired. I saw you worked so hard just to meet one thing – education. I know… that’s all that matters to you.

Celebrity Look-alike huh?

Time to change career?

Longing for mountains…

I miss the way we stuck our feet with mud…
I miss the way we carry 12 liters of water at the back, walking for almost 2 days…
I miss the way limatiks suck my neck to get some fresh blood…
I miss the way we shout unceasingly while pouring a very cold water from the head…
I miss the way we slide when the trail is slippery…
I miss the way we eat oatmeal with milo for breakfast…
I miss the way we bring ponkana juices, lots of meat loaves and sausages when performing an assault to the peak…
I miss the way we shouted “I declare this, the PEAK!”…
I miss the way we rest without minding how dirty the ground is…

I miss my mountain buddies…
I miss the mountains…
That’s all I can say for now…

God’s Debris…

God’s Debris is, according to the author (Scott Adams), is a “thought experiment”. I literally don’t understand what it means, until such time I started reading the introduction. Ooops, warning daw, if I might find the content of the book threatening with regards to my concept of God and His nature, better not continue.

The story just revolved between 2 people, but it gently weaves into a captivating story. A delivery man meets an old man who almost have explanations about God, free will, our existence, etc. etc. The whole story is told in the form of conversation, questions and answers bounced back and fourth. And when you already drowned yourself to the story, it seems that you are also including in the story, like an innocent child listening to their conversations.

The old man’s concept of God is not conventional. His view seems to hand together. His answers to life’s mysteries – God and His nature, reality, free will, probability, science, evolution and even religion – are mostly captivating. I’m not saying that I agreed to all what the old man had said but there are some topics that really fascinated me, like about relationships, will power, affirmations, light and the story about the curious bees.

There were instances that I did not agree to what the old man said about God and His nature. It’s because I have my own explanation about God, and it’s because I do believe. Sabi ng author, “the simplest explanation is usually right…” pero I’m not saying that I’m dead wrong. It’s my own explanation and questioning other people’s faith is out of bounds to everyone except by myself.

If you want to read the ebook, click here.

God bless everyone.

Nostalgia ni Ating…

“Namimiss ko yung… the sound of your voice kpg kumakanta ka… / pangungulit mo… / maangas mong itsura… / simpleng hirit re: life / simpleng ngiti… / the way you move around kpg mgkksama ang banda… / the way u listen to every talk sa clp… / the companionship lalo na kpag may prob kmi ni mark… / asaran nyo ni erome… / kulitan nyo ni popot… / tablahan nyo ni mark… / kwentuhan nyo ni mae… / believe it or not…. / yung bango ng perfume mo na ewan ko ba hanggang ngaun hindi ko pa mahanap sa dept store… / gusto ko tlaga yun… / prang powder lang kc… / pde nman cguro sa babae yun noh… / presence mo khit hindi tau madalas magkausap… / presence mo sa clp.. / presence ng banda… ni mae… / kakyutan ni mae… / softness in her voice… / cute smile… / mahinhin pro rock… / kakaibang tawanan ng banda… / mga jokes na khit narinig ko na natatawa pa din ako… / bag ni popot na prang pang ninja turtles… / chubbiness ni erome… / almost perfect na tugtog ng banda khit na pangit yung cable… / paulit-ulit na intro ni popot… / place ng practice nyo… / gateway na dinadaanan ntin lhat kpg kumakain after ng practice… / excitement lalo na nung maskipaps… / kaba habang tumutugtog kyo sa battle of the bands kna popot… / warm feeling kpg kasama ko kayong lhat… / happiness tuwing makikita ko kayong masaya… / moments natin lhat sa jollibee, mcdo, UP, bahay nila popot, bhay nila mae, bhay nila erome gateway food choices… / taxi moment ntin 2… / thanks nga pla sa paghatid sakin nung tym na yon… / uy, nabawasan ko na khit konti yung ugali na kpag masama loob ko khit san ako pumunta bahala na… / cguro dahil dun sa paghatid mo… / moment nmin ni mark sa baywalk nung hindi pa kmi at hindi pa sya ngsasabi… / excitement lalo na kpg ginagabi tau tpos mag-uusisa si bro. thox… / time na sabay sabay tau ngsimba…

haay… nakakamiss talaga…”

Akhui, Kum…

Last Sunday, I went to the Church of the Holy Trinity to distribute flyers for the upcoming July 16 Christian Life Program or CLP, a starting point of joining Singles For Christ (SFC). After that I attended the last mass for that morning.

There is a particular phrase that struck me on that day’s gospel (Mark 5:38-43) and it was “Talitha, kum” an Aramaic phrase which means, Little girl, arise! That was the priest’s source of sermon and became the essence of the homily. The priest enumerated several things we normally lose. We lose faith, we lose hope, we lose trust, we lose our loyalty, and we lose God. Most of the times, we lose values when we encounter difficulties and adversities in our lives, when we live in turmoil, when we become lost sheep.

That whole day, I held on to that phrase. I kept on repeating those words in my mind so that I can reflect to it and how can I evaluate my life making it as the main thought. Surprisingly, I was able to remember those words until now. “Talitha” means little girl so I set aside my work first and looked for an Aramaic word for “brother”. I stumbled to the word “akhui”.

How many times we mislaid our faith? Hope during the dark times of our lives? Trust? Love for God? Many times right? It seems that we always feel abandoned and helpless when we are bombarded by trials and started telling to ourselves, “why does it always rain on me”? It’s not always that you acknowledge problems as God’s way to strengthen us. Most of the times, we always have this first thought that we misunderstood the purpose of every trial that we encounter. We just later on realize that maybe it’s given to us to teach us something that is lacking in our lives. It’s normal for us that when we have problems, we first tell complaints. We didn’t thought at first to call God for discernment and spiritual guidance. I was able to tell these things because I myself is also guilty with these.

Inspite of having these sort of doubts and questions, complaints and grumbles, faithless and hopeless moments, God never ceases to tell us, “Son, get up!” But I asked myself, do I always respond to God’s call to stand up again when problems made me down? My answer, NO… There are a lot of moments in my life that when bumped into difficulties, I complain. I can’t even comprehend the utmost purpose of the problem and even fail to understand it fully. I normally fail to stand up and recover immediately.

Sometimes, I tend to isolate myself from other people. I tend to reduce my time for service. I tend to neglect prayer time and reading the scriptures. The thought of isolating myself from other people is my way of giving myself ample space to internalize and be alone for quite some time. As I see, it’s my way of taking a rest from a long sturdy journey, journey for holiness with full of hindrances, failures, heartaches and pains. I don’t know if it’s the best way to reevaluate one’s self but that’s the only best way I used to do, until now. And I don’t know if its God’s destined or preferred way for me to get up and move along.

I do still struggle to grow spiritually. It’s been a couple of years when I have decided to pull myself out of the bad box of this world. It’s been a couple of years when I vowed to try my best to be always on the bright and right side of everything. It’s been a couple of years when I really started growing. It’s been a couple of years when I have decided to commit myself for God’s service. I guess what I have done is not yet enough because I do still see that there are still some things that are lacking in my life. And it’s been a couple of years that I am still trying to figure these things out one by one and understand each fully and wholeheartedly. To evaluate it, I really do changed a lot. But I know for myself that there are still a lot of things to be done.

Our lives here on earth is like what mountaineers do, striving to reach the top, with a lot of struggles and hindrances. We slide downward sometimes, move slowly, lag behind and even stumble really hard. Everybody is doing their best to reach the utmost summit. But the thing is, we still struggle to move upward, rather than thinking of quitting, going down and turning our backs, and that’s one of the most important things that God wants to tell us, learn to get up, then continue the journey for in every step you make, you will gain a lot of lessons. As the famous quotation goes, success is not measured on how many times you have achieved and earned, but how many times you tried to get up when you failed. If we want to be successful spiritually, then we must learn to how to get up after falling.

As for me, I do still need to widen my heart for God. Not just to let more of His blessings and goodness enter into it, but to have more room for God when trials come, to call for Him always and feel his guidance and encouragements every time I stumble and fall.

God bless everyone!

Blogging here starts now…

I do have a non-techie blog site but it seems that I am not comfortable of placing blog entries there anymore. That site is too complicated to handle, although it offers a lot compared to other free blogging sites. Aside from that, even if I am trying to create a personal site for blogging, it seems that time doesn’t permit me to do it.

I am hoping that I will be able to maintain this blogspot site consistently. I envy Gezelle for having a nice blog site. I am hoping I can do the same also. But the dedication to maintain it consistently will be the problem . I’m still searching for a place where I can totally express what I want, share my views and my opinions and inform everybody what’s going on with my life in general.

Hope this will work out…